How you diddling?
I'm well pissed off with my back probs today as the pain from yesterday is worse if anything - took 4 attempts to sit down at the table earlier.... grrrrr. I can walk slowly in straight lines but have to stop to turn and I have to do it carefully or get agonising pain.
Tis a bummer. Worried that I may have torn something open inside.... but probably not, probably just the nerves being bastards as they mend - at least I hope thats what they are up to.
Interesting the Buddhist concept of mind and body being entirely one and not separate as we tend to think of them. Makes much more sense realising how the false sensations induced by my nerves can cause hallucinatory effects - I guess its cos they are wired into the brain, not the right parts but probably close enough.
The sensation of boiling water pouring down my leg and of open flames being applied brings tiny mental "dreams" of events that might really be associated with that happening.... easy to see how extreme pain might well drive some people mad.
Its just pissing me off - its not one of those things to go with and "pace" - I think thats running after a ball thats rolling down hill.
That all sounds a bit grim, sorry. Jolly at heart - I feel fine/well inside and I think thats part of the problem. If I actually felt ill then I'd be happy to sit about resting.... but I want to get out and to bounce about.
Take care, work like the devil, take no shit and take no prisoners!!!! Love and a sound kick.
